"Am I Really Alone Or Just Feeling That Way"

In the past when I read or thought of the question "Am I really Alone" my answer would always be a loud and responding yes. But last night and this morning I had a different thought. What changed my mind is really very simple but at the same time complex and one that I have struggled with most of my life. This post is very personal and one that I hope that helps at least one person struggling with thoughts of loneliness. 

Sometimes I feel alone when I am with a crowd of people, even in church and most always at family gatherings, and ALWAYS when I am physically alone. Being lonely doesn't mean you are alone. It is the feeling of being alone, which I have come to believe is a lie from satan himself. 

I have struggled my entire life to win my parent's love and approval  and others and last night at Bible Study it finally clinked that I am Loved and never alone "38 For I am persuaded, that neither death, nor life, nor angels, nor principalities, nor powers, nor things present, nor things to come,

39 Nor height, nor depth, nor any other creature, shall be able to separate us from the love of God, which is in Christ Jesus our Lord." Romans 8:38 -39 and "5 Keep your lives free from the love of money and be content with what you have, because God has said,“Never will I leave you never will I forsake you.” Hebrews 13:5

I know there are some reading this and thinking I don't believe the Bible and in God but I know the Bible is true, (It and God has literally saved my life, not just since last night but many times.)  If only I had applied It's truth in all my troubles and situations I wouldn't have knowledge to be writing this post and I wouldn't be able to say "I know what I am talking about because I know what you are feeling and this is what I did and the outcome is so much better when we do it God's way"( no I am not saying that everything is or will be perfect ( until we reach Heaven) but you will have peace and be assured that you are loved.

I have come to the conclusion that even if you don't believe in God or even if you do, but believe that He is way out there and doesn't care and isn't with us all the time, we still are not alone. I believe we have company just the same in the form of satan " Be well balanced (temperate, sober of mind), be vigilant and cautious at all times; for that enemy of yours, the devil, roams around like a lion roaring [in fierce hunger], seeking someone to seize upon and devour." 1 Peter 5:8

So I cannot in all honesty tell myself I am alone anymore ( maybe I am in the sense no-one is in the physical realm )but I have all I need" My god shall supply all my needs.” Philippians 4:19 so I am going to start listening to my Father ,The King of King" I am a beloved daughter and am never alone!

Yes, I will struggle but no longer alone!

I Love You This Much" performed by Jimmy Wayne

He can't remember
The times that he thought
Does my daddy love me?
Probably not
That didn't stop him
From wishing that he did
Didn't keep him from wanting
Or worshipping him

He guesses he saw him
About once a year
He could still feel the way he felt
Standing in tears
Stretching his arms out
As far as they'd go
Whispering daddy
I want you to know

[Chorus:]
I love you this much
And i'm waiting on you
To make up your mind
Do you love me too?
How ever long it takes
I'm never giving up no matter what
I love you this much

He grew to hate him for what he had done
'cause what kind of father
Could do that to his son?
He said 'damn you daddy'
The day that he died
The man didn't blink
But the little boy cried

[Chorus:]
I love you this much
And i'm waiting on you
To make up your mind
Do you love me too?
How ever long it takes
I'm never giving up no matter what
I love you this much

Half way through the service
While the choir sang a hymn
He looked up above the preacher
And he sat and stared at him

He said
'forgive me father'
When he realized
That he hadn't been unloved
Or alone all his life
His arms were stretched out
As far as they'd go
Nailed to the cross
For the whole world to know

[Chorus:]
I love you this much
And i'm waiting on you
To make up your mind
Do you love me too?
How ever long it takes
I'm never giving up no matter what
I love you this much

"He Is With You" performed by Mandisa

There's a time to live
And a time to die
There's a time to laugh
And a time to cry
There's a time for war
And a time for peace
There's a hand to hold
In the worst of these

He is with you when your faith is dead
And you can't even get out of bed
Or your husband doesn't kiss you anymore
He is with you when your baby's gone
And your house is still, and your heart's a stone
Cryin' God, what'd You do that for
He is with you

There's a time for yes
And a time for no
There's a time to be angry
And a time to let it go
There is a time to run
And a time to face it
There is love to see you
Through all of this

He is with you in the conference room
When the world is coming down on you
And your wife and kids don't know you anymore
He is with you in the ICU
When the doctors don't know what to do
And it scares you to the core
He is with you

We may weep for a time
But joy will come in the morning
The morning light

He is with you when your kids are grown
When there's too much space and you feel alone
And you're worried if you got it right or wrong
Yes He is with you when you've given up
On ever finding your true love
Someone who feels like home
He is with you

When nothing else is left
And you take your final breath
He is with you